Someone is Playing a Joke on My Life
25 May 2008
I may present a reflection of resilient and sturdy woman when you look at me. Deep down inside me, there is an outcry. Gnawing over anxiety after anxiety when I wish I could be as nonchalant as I can.
Moonlight (Picture Source)
Inside my heart, there is a sanctuary which is meant to be safe and strong but it looks frail and fragile for now. Life is really unpredictable. A horror joyride it may seemed to be at times. Some may find it like a roller-coaster thriller ride.
Sometimes I really ponder upon someone out there might be playing a joke on my life. Times when I felt like kicking people’s ass for causing a stumbling block in my life.
Sunset (Picture Source)
A few situations of turmoil may really cause me to be in immense distress. I only know there are incalculable matters I have to face all by myself.
I thought I was strong but I was not.
I gave in to my emotions and broke down an hour ago.
Chaos in life may turn out like the wild river (Picture Source)
I cannot be spilling all my beans here. Some are quite personal. I do not know who turn to but God above.
Kevin, on the other hand, is having another bad luck with his car. His car door was banged this afternoon. Somehow I felt that his current car gave him a lot of problems. Now he has to stay back in Ipoh to fix it. If the accident did not occur, I would probably felt better with a shoulder to lean on.
At this minute, I only need a favour from you.
Please keep my mummy in prayers. She is undergoing an operation this coming Tuesday at Ampang Hospital. The O&G wants to observe her enlarged cyst whether it is dangerous or not. I earnestly seek your kindness in upholding my dearest mummy in your daily prayers.
Sunrise (Source)
I hope to hold both of my feet firm and strong when I wait for her outside the operation theatre alone. I will constantly look to the Heavens above, praying unceasingly for all things to run smoothly.
All I want now is my healthy Mummy back at home. I cannot afford to think of other predicaments.
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Posted by Grace at 9:03 pm
Categorised as Rantings & Thoughts
May 25th, 2008 at 9:35 pm
Dear Grace,
There is no doubt that in life, as much friends as you may have, there will be things that you may have to face it alone eventually. But do remember, as brothers and sisters here, we may not totally understand the anxiety and pressure that you are facing, but be rest assured that even if you fall, we are here to lend a helping hand to lift you up, and above all, we know God will.
Our prayers are with you and your mummy….:) I can’t ask you not to worry, but we can together trust God more, faith in the One that holds everything in His hands. Cheer up…:) May the peace of God lighten your burdens today…….*HUGS*
May 25th, 2008 at 10:13 pm
Gerald : Thanks a lot, bro. It really means to me when someone is there to offer me a helping hand to lift me up from the “dungeon” where I have fallen to… Most of all, I will continue to look unto Daddy God. *HUGS*
May 25th, 2008 at 10:23 pm
Don’t worry..It wil be alright..Believe and have faith…
May 25th, 2008 at 10:35 pm
falcon : Your latest post just put a smile on my face. Thanks a lot for your great George Bush post…. =)
May 25th, 2008 at 10:57 pm
i dont know what muc to say babe.
take this as a testing time.
bite the towel with a smile on your face babe.
life’s life.
May 25th, 2008 at 11:07 pm
Kev : It’s always easier said than done. But i appreciate it.
May 26th, 2008 at 10:06 am
Hey,
Sorry to hear bout your mum… Hopefully she gets better. Just have faith and everything will work out for the best…
May 26th, 2008 at 11:08 am
I can’t say much here, cuz i seldom gone through these stages. But, like the rest said, Have faith, Be strong, Believe and BELIEVE again.
What our life has gone through, or going through, OR even GOING to go through, God, Jesus, Father, our BEST Friend, is always n DEFINITELY (code me on that) WILL be, beside you. (even if u think that u will be alone waiting for her at the operation theater, DO NOT FORGET, we are all in prayers as well. AND MOST OF ALL, our DADDY JESUS/GOD, Is right beside you, and HE will be sitting beside u, holding ur hands, and giving YOU a shoulder to lean on. *though kevin might not be there to borrow. =)*
ok???? Do not DOUBT!!!!! what ever you do, DO NOT DOUBT!!! GOD will be there, the operations HAS BEEN SUCCESSFUL!!!!
I put HAS because i BELIEVE, IT WILL BE, AND WILL DEFINITELY BE, A GREAT SUCCESS!!! *hugs*
May 26th, 2008 at 11:16 am
s2k : Thank u dear…
yes2leong : Amen! God will be there for me. Btw, u can teman me if u want to. Hahahahahaha…. =)
May 26th, 2008 at 1:02 pm
Hey Grace,
Hang in there, you need to be strong for your mum and to ensure her that everything will be all right. Be the pillar of strength that you know you are and visualize your mum back at home with you with a smile on her face. Have faith in God and trust everything will be all right. My prayers are with you and your mum as well.
May 26th, 2008 at 10:49 pm
Hey there Grace,
I read your posting with great concern. Wish I could be there in person to comfort you in your time of need.
I will surely pray for your mum’s recovery.
Sorry for the long absence.
May 27th, 2008 at 12:24 am
Jay : Thank u for your thoughtful comment here… all the way from Dubai…. Thanks a lot Jay. Appreciate it a lot. =)
Bangmalaysia : Finally you’re back. And I am glad for your kindness to pray for my mum. Thank you so much dear.
May 27th, 2008 at 5:55 pm
Sorry to hear about your mum..
I know it’s easily said then done… I have lost my dad, I know how it feels like.. Just be strong and think positively…
May 27th, 2008 at 6:05 pm
and pray for the best.. it is not our choice in life but we do whatever that arises and make the best of it..
Sorry, me new in blogging, hit the submit button, I thought I could review it but it’s too late. sorry for the double posting
May 28th, 2008 at 8:06 am
Uncle IH : It’s okay, Uncle. In fact, I would say thank u so much for ur encouragement. Glad that mummy is fine…