31 May 2008

I was browsing through some books in MPH Mid Valley today and I stumbled upon this.

Why Men Marry Bitches: A Woman’s Guide to Winning Her Man’s Heart

It’s really amusing to see the title of this book which happens to be a New York Times Bestseller too!

Due to curiosity, I decided to do a quick research on this book which was written by Sherry Argov.

Now according to Sherry Argov, she has written this book to show women how to transform a casual relationship into a committed one. She explains that being nice to your man won’t make him more devoted. In her interviews with men, Argov found that men want to commit to women who exude confidence and are in control of their lives.

Wow. That is something unique. Can you imagine yourself in a world in which roles were reversed and men cooked for women, picked up socks, and couldn’t wait to get married?

I am unsure about this. Perhaps, can you (read: men or boys) tell me which type of woman you are searching to be your wife?

How does a bitch make a man happy?

I wonder.

28 May 2008

Due to the recent predicaments, my life was up and down like a roller coaster. Especially when I started to cry, tears will be flowing out continuously. Hence, I will be wiping tears with tissue papers or with my own bare hands.

Lately, before I slept, there was a routine of breakdown and I had no choice to rub my teary eyes instantly as it was late at night. I needed to dry them as fast as I could in order to tuck myself in bed. Without realizing my nails were long, I accidentally brushed one of my nail against my cornea.

Ouch.

Now there are bloody red patches at my cornea. I didn’t have time to consult the doctor due to mum’s situation. However, the nurse did give me some ice to reduce swelling yesterday.

Can anyone tell me is it safe to leave my eye to recover on its own?

27 May 2008

I am seriously enraged by the security guard who just shooed me away when my mum needed me the most at this hour. It was already 11:15pm when the guard came for a thorough check in each ward.

Mum really needed my company as the operation will be held in less than 7.5 hours from now. How could the nurse be so atrocious to separate my mum and I at this hour? I will not make a single noise. I just want to sit at the corner to look after my mum. Why must she further aggravate my mum’s fear of being alone in the hospital? Why must she cause me to drive to and from hospital which took me a blardy long 40 minutes home? Now, I have to wake up at 6am the next morning.

I wish I could file a complaint against her but I cannot. It will be absurd to do such a thing. Hospital policy is a policy to be followed. They need to act justly to all patients and visitors. Hence, I must be rationale. Darn!

Now, I must say that establishing a supreme friendship at this age of mid-20s is essential. In times of trepidation and agitation, my closest buddies were there to support me spiritually and morally. Being aware of my anxiety, these people are the ones who offered words of encouragement and ensured me to stay strong despite the situation.

I must give credits and recognition to my world-class friends like Chen, Yin, Kim, Gerald, Isaac, SanJay, Nicholas, Lizzie, Abang Cicak Mike and many more. Thank you for your text messages and prayer support. Thank you so much for your listening ears and ringing me up to check whether I am okay.

Your thoughtful concerns are incomparable and I sincerely offer a heart of gratitude to you. Without you, I would not be able to be much more confident than yesterday. Because of you guys, you took away my fear and reassured me that my mum will come home safely. Words cannot describe how grateful I am to you guys. It’s just beyond description.

Isn’t it wonderful to have friends in times of need?

I guess you have your own friendship story to tell too.

25 May 2008

I may present a reflection of resilient and sturdy woman when you look at me. Deep down inside me, there is an outcry. Gnawing over anxiety after anxiety when I wish I could be as nonchalant as I can.

Moonlight (Picture Source)

Inside my heart, there is a sanctuary which is meant to be safe and strong but it looks frail and fragile for now. Life is really unpredictable. A horror joyride it may seemed to be at times. Some may find it like a roller-coaster thriller ride.

Sometimes I really ponder upon someone out there might be playing a joke on my life. Times when I felt like kicking people’s ass for causing a stumbling block in my life.

Sunset (Picture Source)

A few situations of turmoil may really cause me to be in immense distress. I only know there are incalculable matters I have to face all by myself.

I thought I was strong but I was not.

I gave in to my emotions and broke down an hour ago.

Chaos in life may turn out like the wild river (Picture Source)

I cannot be spilling all my beans here. Some are quite personal. I do not know who turn to but God above.

Kevin, on the other hand, is having another bad luck with his car. His car door was banged this afternoon.  Somehow I felt that his current car gave him a lot of problems. Now he has to stay back in Ipoh to fix it. If the accident did not occur, I would probably felt better with a shoulder to lean on.

At this minute, I only need a favour from you.

Please keep my mummy in prayers. She is undergoing an operation this coming Tuesday at Ampang Hospital. The O&G wants to observe her enlarged cyst whether it is dangerous or not. I earnestly seek your kindness in upholding my dearest mummy in your daily prayers.

Sunrise (Source)

I hope to hold both of my feet firm and strong when I wait for her outside the operation theatre alone. I will constantly look to the Heavens above, praying unceasingly for all things to run smoothly.

All I want now is my healthy Mummy back at home. I cannot afford to think of other predicaments.