17 January 2005

I just don’t know why…. I was chatting with Ashley the other night regarding best friends… She was missing her best friend so much in Australia. As for me, I began to miss my sisters so much and I ended up scribbling onto my notebook while chatting with Ashley.. as you can see the above picture. I just miss Ying Yin, Silvia and Chen so much in my life. I just don’t know why this happened but…. it reflected me so much about our friendship and the sisterhood we had. It’s just like within seconds of the conversation between the both of us, Ashley and I were drenched in tears….. And it turned out to be a silence of sobbing… Why?? Because we’re missing our best friends.

I seriously can’t wait to see Yin and Chen this week again …. I don’t know what will happen when Yin flies to Australia. Gosh.. I don’t know how to imagine..but I will bless her with my prayers…giving her my best moral and prayer support in her studies and her future.

God knows how precious and valuable this friendship means to me. Silvia in US, Chen busy with her medical studies in IMU….4 of us…. yes… 4 of us… really strong bonding of love between 4 of us. Somehow I just miss them so much… so much that I could end up in tears easily while thinking of them. Just like now when I’m typing this….

I just pray that our friendship will be blessed and wish them the best of luck in their future undertakings…

Missing them whole heartedly.

11 January 2005

I hurt my back due to the long hours of travelling. I was in Genting with my family on Saturday. And then on Sunday, I went back to Ipoh in the afternoon…. had a long journey back home…Then later on had to wash up to get ready for grandma’s birthday dinner. It was really tiring somehow. Yeah… after that I had to follow my aunt’s car back to KL after the dinner…

All of us singing birthday song for grandma as she cuts the cake with grandpa..

From L-R: Careena, Me, Catherina and my mum in the dinner…

By the time I reached KL, it was already 12am. Yesterday morning I had to take a KTM at 6:50am back to NILAI and then reached college at about 8:10am. It was really exhausting to travel up and down. Till I had no energy to work yesterday and was down with slight fever and terrible headache. Not only that, my back was really in pain. I think I slept too much yesterday. Once i reached my room, I slept until 5:30pm. In between I woke up to reply sms, go to the loo and drank water…after that I dozed off again. At night I could not stand the back pain…thanks to the bedframe dented and the long hours of travelling… but anyhow.. I went to see doctor after dinner…(must eat ler…whole day didn’t eat anything)… Doctor gave me a jab… And this is crazy.. I hate injections anyway..but that’s a faster way of recovering… But this morning… I can still feel the ache..but thank God Doctor gave me 2 days of MC..at least I can escape work today to rest better.

Oh NOOOOooooo I almost forgot that I had a supplementary paper on the 19th Jan… on WEB development. Shit…better start studying already… I took MC on 18th June 2004 for this paper due to diarrhoea….and now I have to take this which is 7 months later…I hope i don’t forget what I have studied so long ago…haihhhh

Anyway I still have good news to spare…what is that?? Hahaha… I just found out that I am the one who scored highest marks in Human Resource Management last semester’s final exams… Hahaha!!! I’m so happy… I stand a chance to collect the Certificate of Outstanding Achievement for this subject. I’m crazily thankful for God’s faithfulness in my studies!! Praise the Lord for wisdom that He has blessed me with.

Aiyak…. I beh tahan dy. My back pain is still soaring… Better take a good rest and it’s enough of blogging today…. See you  and tata for now and enjoy some good pics taken in Genting with family as well in the birthday dinner with Grandma..

My family and I …. at Genting Hotel lobby…outside the Olive’s restaurant

10 January 2005

Why did I say that? Oh well, I was looking through the devotional book entitled “Closer Walk – 365 Daily Devotions that nurture a heart for God“. I think I will be re-reading this devotional book again since I stopped halfway last year. Well, no harm but I have to start right I guess. This book is written by Bruce H. Wilkinson who is also the author of the Prayer of Jabez.

Well, most of all we always sincerely or honestly ask ourselves…are we walking right with God? If no, we should start right at this day at this brand new year since it’s still fresh. ‘Closer Walk’ is a book that has been developed to help you attain a closer walk with God and I think that this book will feed and strengthen my faith for Him as well as develop a heart after God.

I was looking through January 11’s page… It was telling us about “A Yoke Designed With Comfort in Mind” which we can refer to the Bible at Matthew 11:29-30. Wearing the yoke of Christ means we have Christ as our daily guide… Moreover, this will lighten our burden…

6 January 2005

Aunt Belle, my auntie (my father’s brother’s wife) from US called again. This is her 2nd time calling me regarding my further studies in US. The previous time she called was on Christmas night. This proves that she is really anxious about my education. She has asked me whether I have discussed this with my paternal grandma or not.

Aunt Belle has talked a lot with my grandma regarding me going over to Fremont, US to study. Grandma even asked her the costs and where I am going to study if I desire to fly to US. But the thing is… Grandma is waiting for my call… she is waiting for me to voice out to her that I want to go. All this while she thinks that I don’t want to go over there. But she is going to support me financially if I want. Both grandma and Aunt Belle knows that I die and yearn to do a biotechnology degree instead of business since I’m young. Grandma’s approval is just a CALL away!!!!!

They both know that I was born smart and hey.. I got Number 1 in class when I was in Standard 1 – 3. But I remained in TOP 5 in Std 4 – 6. Somehow my parents lack of being attentive towards my studies and I also laze off and got wild… hehee (every teenager goes thru that)… and I manage to maintain TOP 10 in class when I was in Form 1 to Form 3. I even managed to get 5A’s and 2 B’s in PMR without studying much…hehe… But I messed up my FORM 4 and FORM 5 due to unnecessary life…too much nuisance…so messed up my SPM. Learnt and regretted… worked hard during SAM in Taylor’s.. managed to get a TER of 76 and 1A, 2B’s and 2 C’s. I know I could do better than that but somehow I broke my foundation of form 4 and 5 that’s why I couldnt catch as much as the others do in my SAM.

Alright enough of my journey of education. I just squeeze my brain and wonder… SHOULD I go to US? If yes, it will be very soon because I have to send in my applications by mid March the latest as all schools will close deadlines in APRIL for January 2006 intake. If i go there, it means either 27-29 December 05, or between 4-6 January 06, I have to fly to US already!!!!!! Don’t think it’s far away as you all know that TIME FLIES ok? Today is already the 5th of JAN!

I seriously yearn to do a biotechnology course. The opportunity is right in front of my eyes. But I have a calling to do theology in my future years to come as well. Is it okay if I do my biotechnology first, then after working a few years with biotech, then i do my theology… what about this? Going to US is unexpectable… totally SUDDEN to me.

Can you see Fremont? Fremont is just in between Oakland and San Jose. Fremont is where I am going to stay if I go to US.
My mUm seriously didn’t want me to go for so long… coz it will take me 3years to do my studies there. I can’t be coming back often…it’s not cheap for an airfare to US.

I’m seriously stuck in a dilemma. Can anyone please advise me on this? I know Silvia and Yin is 100% supporting me to catch hold of this golden opportunity. Even my son, David and grandpa, Alex asked me to go. Pastor Vic encouraged me to go now… Haihhh!!!!

Please keep me in your prayers as I am desperate for advice and prayers upon this matter. URGENT and SERIOUS. Thank you so much buddies and please keep this personal till it is CONFIRMED!